Friday, June 15, 2012

if you want to be remembered

        I feel like the storm broke a little bit this week, well, yesterday really, but not in a good way.  Well, i guess a good way, you know how sometimes you come to a realization about what's been bugging you but the realization isn't all good news?  It's that sort of thing.  My overall direction keeps solidifying though, which I really like.  There's a ton of work in my future, but it's all work I want to do, and ultimately it's the kind of work that's going to "break the chains", if you will.  Fun work is rarely ever hard work.  Fun work that involves learning new skills and moves you towards your overall goal is the best kind...well ok, second to the kind of work you actually end up doing once you get to your goal and are...doing the work you set out to do in the first place.  Something along those lines.

worth
Sleep's for people who are BROKE -Fiddy

        I am a little concerned with the way i'm feeling about training, i have this almost unnatural drive to be in the gym now, like my self-worth is tied up in my training.  I know that's not healtyh, and I'm glad i can identify it, means i'm probably just being a drama queen, but you know, right now, i just...man, i just need to feel like i'm worth something somewhere, you know?  Pathetic yeah, yeah i know, i am where i am of my own choosing...
  • Military Press: 55x5/65x5/75x5/75x5/85x5/95x13
  • Incline Bench: 95x5/105x5/115x4x5,1x8
  • Pendlay Row: 115x5/135x5/155x3x5/135x8
  • Bear Grip T-Bar Row: 100x5/105x5/115x5/120x5/125x8
  • Tricep Pushdown: 87.5x2x5/95x2x5/87.5x8
  • Lat Pull: 130x5/150x5/170x2x5/150x8
  • Push Press: 135 5x5
        Eh i dunno...at the end of the day, whatever gets me into the gym.  If I crash and burn, I crash and burn.  Wouldn't be the first time.

Today's TrainingTune: Doctrine - FGFC820